Holy Week easterrr

Holy Thursday. i not go church :( my grandparents not going. and my parents wont exactly send me to church u knw, urgh. hopefully Good Friday they go la. hee

but i will GUARANTEE go to Easter Sunday, i will. i shall. i must.

HAPPY EASTER GUYS <3 

Tuesday. 18 April 2011

So basically today was a really hot day. It started by raining so it was tolerable. In a way. Pfft. Anyways.
After school, i tried avoiding spending brader time. Why? Cause i know whats coming.

Yes i knew what you guys wanted. During pa/lie that. Yg bfre 12.20 that. When i was with ash and bren. You really shouldnt ask leng to call me if u wanted me there instantly. That girl gives a lot away by here fes.

Anyways.
Goin to after 12.20.
I was sitting with janice, joyce and alicia, discussing songs with random stuff amd this spontaneous drama they js created. Hilarious really, when my braders cam up to me.

'hai nikki.'
'hey guys'
'we are going to play a game. And you are gona like it'
'oh really? What...'

Yea i was cut off

BY THEM GRABBIBG MY ARM AND PULLING ME BACKWARDS.
thank God my skirt was tucked between my legs cause the nezt thing i knew, THEY CARRIED ME UP. I have never in my life been kidnapped from a conversation by my best buds. Ever.

So yeah they were desperate ba i think to know who i like. Ish
YOU PEOPLA KNOW LA KNOW. gembira la kan braders. Pffft

Anyways. Yeah. I didnt like it. As i said before, the pressure of being stared down was intense. I dont like being stared at when im sharing private life. Its like, being scrutinised. But i love them for not prying any deeper than what i shared la.

Thanks guys <3 but seriously. Im stil deeply disturbed by this fact. My childhood bestfriend hated (okay maybe not hate la, hate is such a strong word. She disliked her. I dont think she likes him very much either )

Haihh

I need toget over this

Hearts to louiselle

I know your birthday was like, 16 of april, but i still love you sho happee birthdayh you crazey woman. Your cat ish sho fat. TEEHEE

I have been updating alot this month

Why you ask? I. Don't. Know.

I guess I have a lot on my mind.

I guess I have been keeping too much to myself.

I also guess that I can't handle being stared at when i share something.

The peer pressure of being stared at is... uhh yeah.

Which is why i am so weird when i go on stage to say stuffs. i get nervous and i put on another character.
another attitude.
and i pretend no one is looking at me.

i can't do that to my friends. :( thats just being mean

probably why i prefer blogging and talking to a wall and my ceiling. 

Good

Its good to know my blog is been read.

Tapi macam kedapatan nih the post.

During recess i was like, 'cornered'? Well not really but vad came up to me like really close and said 'young blood'. PFFFT. u made me feel like an animal >:
No vadee noooo. XD

But seriously. I use but seriously alot. HAHAHAB

anyways. Yeah.

Still highly disturbed by the fact mentioned in the previous-es post.

Today

My neighbour called. Twice. At difd times. I feel bad not answering and calling back. Nehmindla talk to him tomoro

Ish.

I SHOULDNT BE LEFT ALONE TO MY THOUGHTS.

They're just too loud. Screaming profanities.

Okay a real update for march/april

Teehee. Ignore whatever u read. It was a spurr of the moment. I.. Should delete it. But ngeh. I want to use it like how Ted Moseby uses 'the letter' to remind him why he broke up with someone. But HAHA i was never with anyone so its js gona remind me why i should like other people. LIKE LIKE OMGOMG okay why did i type that 0.0

Anyywayysss.
Bakat convent. Was. Last friday 8april2011.
Epic fail
The begining of the day, the teachers were like 'oh pn pang says no audience allowed cause too noisy' but in the end pn pang wasnt present so there was an audience anyways.
Then
The program lasted longer. It kinda sorta passed 1pm (suppose to finish at 1 cause afternoon session starts class at 1 on fridays) but uh yeah
So because 'the kids' needed to 'study' the teacher was like 'usage of mics is prohibited from here on cause we dont want the afternoon students to not pay att. '
WHAT ATTENTION. i think they rather hear whats going on than wonder the whole day

So basically when it was out turn, we sucked. Yeah. Hence the name. 'suckier than crap' haha

From my point of view we destroyed that song where we strummed. Yeahhh. :((
But the rapping was nice. Okayla.

I think when i posted what i posted last night was compressed rage hahahaha okay i know i didnt sound pissed but it sort of muddled my brain ba.
Kan i am a bit offside in the brain. XD

Im still pissed about the mics though.

In truth?

The brains screams no but the heart pushes foward Bellowing yes.

I know in my head somewhere ive said love is where the heart settles (or something like that xD)
But seriously? (and i quote vadee) "if u cant find someone, it doesnt mean u need to lower ur standards. " in my head i added 'drastically' but hey. It made a heck lot of sense okay.

So i need to stick to my standards. The prioritized ones especially.