2013 semester 2

Reine finally made it to Degree! lol biggest joke of the year haha
New classmates whom we hang with include convert from engineering Alan Gian, Spotlight runner up Clinton Chua and the occasional Benard Ling
All three may I add are like the epitome of holiness.
And by that I mean  active in church XD
Currently we are having a swear jar that Mandy is suffering the most from
and people are getting on my nerves again
I can only stand talking to a few people nowadays
Reine, Clinton, CSS members, myself, God
Alan is cool and all, but I prefer being in silence with him. But hes always good for a laugh. sounding high and all that shiz haha
Benard.... yeahhhh lets just say I dont want to start on that topic
I cant man
I just cant
So sick of drama
So sick of using so much money also
its like GURL YOU THINK YOU RICH ISIT
HAIH
 and now rufus again ada hal
ish
ish
*wipes tears*
*plays terrified on repeat*
I just
I just thought
things would be different
Not about being lazy though, i know im lazy. I think its getting worse and yet somehow better though.
I notice i panic more on group assignments. Individual ones I more or less dgaf anymore
not good
at all
individual carries more marks
ish
NIKKI WHATS WRONG WITH YOU
I went back for the 1st free week the other day
best solitude i could ask for
but at the same time, I was craving the company of people i havent seen in a while. like bel vadee, oh and fred. i miss talking to fred so much
and ash
baby if you are reading this I just want you to know that i love you, and we need to meet up as soon as possible kay <3 :="" p="">Sometimes even when im hanging with the people i mention above (the curtinians), i still feel so lonely and left out.
maybe its just me
idk
but the feeling of being lonely in a crowded room is so sad
I thought i was over this. Maybe wrong crowd again?
And talking to vus doesn't and would not cure me of this sadness
because bakar might be there
and i don want him to know my life
urgh
I have a somewhat poetic soul ok. i just dont like talking about it
reasons why i write.
who do i talk to when no one listens or isnt there to?

Dysfunctional just like me

So the saying goes "like dog like owner"right?

I never knew how true this could be

until my dad called just now

threathening to kill rufus

apparently he bit seanna. and now shes afraid of all the dogs

one thing though, hes staying out of house now

but  it does bring the question:

Why the sudden change?

Puberty? impossible. we got rid of that. unless this is a reaction of dogs with lack of hormones....highly doubt that though

I mean, hes about 1.5 human years dy. that puts him around 14? 15 dog years

the oddball stage

I remember I always told people, "He only bites you if he likes you"

I still stand by that statement

I wish it wasnt true though

My arms are officially ruined because of dog saliva (yes apparently if i dont wash my hands immediately after touching them i get horrible rashes and it swells and it gets really itchy like sandfly bites)

anyway moving on

I need to find him a new home.

someone who'll let him in the house, and let him out only to go pee and poop, that kinda thing

know anyone?

:( Why am i asking here

no one reads this anyway

ima go cry now as i write a really distracted essay