Tomorrow is the 14th and i cant sleep. Gahh. Its like PMR all over again.

Except SPM lasts longer and is actually worth something.

Fear. 
Some say you shouldnt fear anything but the sky falling on your heads. 
Some say you shouldnt fear anything but the unknown. 
Some even say you shouldnt fear anything at all. 

But i agree with the other saying. 

"One shouldnt fear anything, but FEAR itself. "

Cause this means, you should only be afraid when it really strikes you.  Directly or indirectly. 
Directly as in : staring down a gun barrel, animal encounters, people who attack you etc. Indirectly as in : rumours of a threat, something that could change your life but isnt physical, seeing a friend go downhill etc. You get the point, empathy and so on. 

Right now, im experiencing the indirect kind. 

I honestly dont really show that im terrified of spm, i really dont. But on THE INSIDE. im squirming, my hormones are wayyy off balance, and i get pissy a whole lot more? Beginings of highblood? PLEASE NO. 

anyways. To get my minds of thing...

Nana they all came to the house. I was like ehhh HAIII. Yeah. They stayed for dinner. We (me nana aiden titi) tooo a couple of photos on ma mum's comp. Funny this. Anyyways. Might upload em here. Hahaha if epic enough, i'll upload on tumblr. XD

We went to the play ground, and nana voiced out what i have been thinking for weeks : if got cute guy here senang oh. "hey lets meet at the playground" then walk3...
I was like yeah but those who still hang around here are mostly kids. Trus she diam this. Hahahaha oh well. 

This whole weekend people have been wishing each other luck. Then i got a text frm joibi. He said we dont need luck. Honestly? Yeah. I agree. We need a miracle. :O